sometimes....

Sometimes...
a lot of opportunity came in our life.
We need to choose either grab it or drop it.

Sometimes...
the opportunity just came once.
Sometimes...
it may change our life.
Sometimes...
it doesn't change anything.
Sometimes...
we can't decide what the right decision to be made.

Sometimes...
we need help to make decision.

Sometimes...
nobody can help us.
Sometimes...when we lose it, we'll regret.
Sometimes...when we grab it, we had a joy.
Sometimes...we just waiting it to be true.
Sometimes...it came when we need it.
Sometimes...it never come although we wish for it.

So, when it come, choose the right decision and grab it as you wish for...

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class olahraga...weee~~

ehem2..
olahraga??
1st thing come to my mind..
arrgghhh...
lontar peluru..
berat tuh..
heheheehehehe..
but indeed this class is fun..
hahahahaha
im going to miss olahraga class..
esp kak lok a.k.a our coach..
though sometimes i always cause trouble to kak lok..
hehehe..
sorry kak lok!..
miss doing the warming up thingy..
the ert teachers..



gonna miss u all guys!!


teslians such a camwhore...hahahaha



whoa...effa dear..u're such a drama queen..hehehehe

p/s:.im so sleepy..aq tk tau pa kena mgena benda ne ngan post kt atas..hahahaha

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bila sem 1 da over...weee~~~

uisshhh...
how come??
so fast oooo..
already study week without my realization..
hehehehehehe...
means..
i have 6 more semesters here+1 semester practicum..
hahaha..
still long way to go..
this sem..
though only seems like a short time..
but indeed too many things happened..
met many new friends from many places..
whoooaaaa..
im happy being one of the teslians here..
hahahahahahahaha
lv myself!!
weee~~~

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dear h1t8......

saja nk wt post pasal korg2 ne..
pemly h1t8..
weyh windu la sma kmu..
weee~~
esp aeyn,feyza,eyva,olga,huda..
dieyn member penghambur sma aq dlm class sir leirfos..
mst sir leirfos windu aq ne..
terry yg slalu gado ma aq..
windu maw gadu sma ko neyh terry..hehehehe...
steph yg lucu..
my mummy a.k.a aqillah...
prof..
sepa g???
josie jiran q d blok b..
maryam yg kilik..
kakak ipar q a.k.a zakiah...
dan korg2 smua la..
weyh..
bla maw jmpa neyh..
hehehehe...


kuarga h1t8..wee




starz h1t8



sir leirfos blanja burger weyh...weee



kakak ipar!!!...misshhh u..



cute smua neyh...heeee

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what i've learnt today....

I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow."

"I've learned that regardless of your relationship with your parents, you'll miss them when they're gone from your life." "I've learned that making a 'living' is not the same thing as 'making a life'."

"I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance."

"I've learned that you shouldn't go through life with a catcher's mitt on both hands; you need to be able to throw some things back."

"I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision."

"I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one."

"I've learned that every day you should reach out and touch someone."

"People love a warm hug, or just a friendly pat on the back."

"I've learned that I still have a lot to learn."

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."

p/s: APPRECIATE THINGS AROUND YOU...THERE'S A REASON WHY ALLAH DID THAT. ^_^

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syukur sangat2....

weeee...
arrrgghhhh...
3more presentation to go..
aduyai..
not even start to study...
just now having dinner at one smile bistro restaurant with j...
eyh...
abang waiter ne cm kenal jew...<>
owh ya!!!!
bekas mantan pengerusi baksis..badan kebajikan siswa siswi sabah
abg tuh tny...dik,da order?
aq smbung...
abg kn bekas pengerusi baksis??
eyh,sabah jgk ka dek?
aq tnyla abg tuh dy keja sna ka..
abg tuh nk cari duit lebey rupanya...
nk support dri sndri..
bli tket blek sabah..
ya allah..
bertuah sgt aq neyh...
duit tk cukup..
beliau bagi..
abg2 kirim...
tiket balik xpena nk bli sndri..
bersyukur sgt2..
apa2 pown..
aq bsyukur sgt2...
sungguh2 bg tuh keja..
hmmmm..
2jak la nk crita..
tatata...
weeeeee...



p/s: bsyukur la dgn apa yg korg ada yah...weeee...luv my family...wweeee...miss u all!!!!!!

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Am I being too childish???

childish ka aq neyh???
then why people keep saying.."sheila,don't be so childish..u grow up girl..u're going to be 19teen soon"....
this few weeks i kept hearing the same things about me..
am i really childish??
some of my coursemates also said that...
"how are u going to be a teacher if u urself acting like a child"...
i asked some of my friends also..
same answers again and again
though some indeed really like my style..
huh!..
so?
should i change myself???
is it really my fault if i'm afraid of dark places??
don't know to cross the roads?
always laugh about really small and simple things?
main2 dlm class...
merajuk at simple things...
even some of my lecturers told me to be serious...
i'm sick of this things..
aduyai...
this is just me!!!!
aq ndak hipokrit pown..
cmna aq nk brubah ne???
da ne aq yg real...
weeeee...



p/s: so should i change myself????????weeeee....

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SnaiLs....+....Siput Babi....

My colleagues and I talked about snails this morning and I couldn't help but to ponder over it..

i) Snails are molluscs that have shells. They are found in fresh and sea water, and some snails have also adapted to life on land. So are snails considered seafood?

ii) Why are they called "Siput Babi" in Malay? What is "siput", actually? And do they look a bit like "babi"? If that's the case, are they not "halal"?

iii) If they do have relations to the pigs, how about "wo niu" in Mandarin? As far as my understanding goes, "wo" means shell and "niu" means cow. So now they are related to the cows??

iv) Snails must have sounded quite un-classy, otherwise the delicacy dish wouldn't have been known as "escargot". Or is "escargot" another meaning of snails in another language?

p/s:..weee....i'm still confused about this little thing called snails a.k.a siput babi...

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Happiness came in the blink of an eye....weeee...

Alhamdulillah...
everything makes me happy today...
Pas solat subuh..
went to j house..
urus courses registration for sem2...
at last we are able to get the internet connection...
so damn slow last nite...
huh...
can't even enter the upsi portal..
at 730am..
everything completed!..yeay!!!!
plan nk smbung tido..
but then...
lupa nk cuci kain...
so cancel plan nk tdo..
wink2!...
finished everything at 10am...
class start at 3pm..
so got time somemore...
kak ani asked my help to translate her work...
nasib la jd budak tesl neyh..
uhuk2...
then on9 again and again...
uix...
org sot on9 gak...
die text me 1st..yeay..
tau takut...weeekkkk....
then i went to class...
i thought i will be the only one who're late..
as i entered the bus..
ahahahaha...
j,fara,tamrin,fitri,pakdin,hafiz....
smua ada kt bus tuh..
hahahaha....
lambat berjemaah kot..wee
unfortunately...
my group tk smpat nk present today..heeee..
plan nk g pizza after class...
bus g pekan tuh tk nak gerak gak..
frust waiting for half an hour..
then..we go straight to college..
da la aq mgidam sgt pizza neyh..+nk jumpa abg nsem keja sna tuh..
sakit ati+geram..
on the way going to 1 smile bistro..
i met c cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahahahahahaha
gmbiranya!!!!!!!!
cute ooooooo....
until nite..
chat ngan org sot...syg la ko pck..weee...
(a.k.a pck..weeee)
chat ngan amalina gak..
misssssss her soooo much...
besties 4ever babe!!!!
chat ngan mia gak bout her relationship ngan adam...uhuh...
xde benda nk wat mlm ne..
dok gosip ngan housemates je...
but indeed..
today was such a happy day for me...

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sadness.....fuh!

5th october 2009...
went to lecture with dizziness+red eyes...
today lectures all presentation..
luckily i already done all the presentation..
(jeleknya present kalo mata merah2...hehehehe)
class finished at 12pm..
met my advisor today(dr goh)..
regarding the sem 2 timetable...
why we should do our own timetable???????
such a hard time to do it..weee...
decided to eat kfc today..with j and effa..(results from being so stress!..hahaha)
on the way to pekan..saw an accident...
a secondary school boy was bleeding+motorcycle accident..
so damn scary to see that..huh!..
arrived college at 2pm..
as usual...
online and online...
org sot tu online gak..
do i care???
suddenly...
tetido lak..
hak3....
woke up at 6pm..haiyo...
ym ngan my sis at ukm..weeee...
ym with the teslians also..
dgn c sot jgk..which then turned into a quarrel..isk3..
not my fault though..
at nite..
got discussion..
went to faezah n fara house...
just another day of busy+stress...
weeeee.....

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how I end my weekend...

missed my family back at Tawau...
my caring dad...
loving mum...
bro2 aq yg gila..
sis aq..,<>
geng cute a.k.a adik2 aq...<>
missed them so much!!!!...luv u all forever...
today i'm not in the mood to do my assignments..hehe..
just playing games from the moment i woke up until right now..
i'm not angry with that person anymore..
i'm just forget it and i admit it was me who are damn stupid...weeee
suddenly today...
i started missing my life back at primary and secondary school...
at night..
suddenly not feeling well...
got fever+red eyes somemore....
aisshhhh...
2moro got class at 8..
hope i can make it..

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to us as a child....

everyone...
i have something that is indeed really touched me..
i found this at iluvislam...
i dropped my tears as i read this...

Selalunya, saya atau mungkin sesiapa saja to whom this thread may concern lebih banyak meluangkan masa bersama2 mama,ummi,ibu or mak.. Abah, abi, papa atau ayah ke mana? Kerjalah.. Sibuk.. Sibuk.. Seseorang yang bergelar bapa memang selalu sibuk.. Tapi, pernahkah diri ini ambil beberapa detik ketika untuk merenung balik masa2 silam, kenangan2 lama, yang mungkin saja akan menghilang. Ya, menghilang.. Namun kukira, hilangnya kenangan dari memori seseorang adalah disebabkan empunya diri itu sendiri. Wahai hati dan juga sanubari, janganlah kau lupa.. Janganlah kau lupakan perasaan dan belaian kasih, sayang dan cinta dari seorang abah.. Walau sesibuk mana pun dia, segarang mana pun dia, seletih mana pun dia.. Perasan dia yang dulunya still masih ada.. Masih ada.. Insyaallah.. Actually, saya tersentuh, tersedih, terimbau kenangan lama...

These are some of people responses....

1.21 Jun 2007..
"Nor sayang Abah.." pertama kali sy ucap kan kata sayang kat Abah..
Itu juga kata sayang yg terakhir sy ucap kan pd Abah ketika Abah sdg nazak..
Abah kembali ke Rahmatullah pagi itu..
Lung cancer stage-4..
Sy ad beribu2 hari sebelumnye untuk ucap kan kata sayang itu..
Tapi tak pernah sekali pun Abah mendengar kata2 itu dr mulut sy..
Rasa kesal tak pernah hilang dlm diri sy..
Ego kan sy sebagai seorg anak..
Hari ini..
Hanya kpd Allah SWT sy selalu bermohon agar sampai kan salam Rindu &
salam Sayang sy pd Abah..

Bila imbas kembali,mmg banyak tingkah laku Abah yg menzahir kan
kasih sayangnya pd sy..
Cuma sy tak sedar ketika itu..
Sebab apa?
Sebab hati sy tidak tulus untuk memahami Abah..
Rasa tak puas hati dgn teguran serta marah Abah pd sy bila mana
sy melakukan sesuatu yg salah di matanya telah menutup hati sy untuk melihat
apa yg tersirat..

Sy menyesal & rasa kesal itu benar2 menyeksa kan sy...
Sy harap apa yg saya rasa ini tidak dirasai oleh sesiapa pun d dunia ini..
Sebab perasaan itu benar2 menyeksakan..
Sy sayang..rindu..kan Abah..

2.tau x??
saya memang nangis trus bila b aca pasal abah ni...
saya baru kehilangan abah saya pada 3 mac lalu...
time amek result spm (12 mac) saya takde perasaan langsung nak amik result...
takut cket2 tu adelaa..
alhamdulillah...dalam kesedihan ...ALLAH pujuk hati ini dgn result yg cemerlang....

kalau boleh saya x nak igt lagi macam mana saya sakitkan hati abah saya....
pernah time saya dah nak pegi kelas memandu...abah tegur pakaian saya...
tapi saya lawan cakap die...
saya merajuk dgn dier.....saya nangis.....

banyak sangat saya sakitkan hati die...

time die sakit dulu bukannye saya jaga btol2...

tapi..... ucapan minta maaf sehari seblom die xde tu laa ucapan minta maaf yg pertama dan terakhir yg saya ucapkan kt dier......

dalam hati ni mmg btul2 nyesal.....]

btullah...sepatut nye kte bukan tunggu utk bergaji besar bru nak balas jasa....
kita tak tau bila ALLAH akan jemput die balik....
sementara umi masih ada nii saya nak btul2 berjasa......



Pernahkah anda menatap orang-orang yang anda sayang saat mereka sedang tidur? Kalau belum, cubalah sekali saja menatap mereka saat sedang tidur. Saat itu yang tampak adalah ekspresi paling wajar dan paling jujur dari seseorang. Seorang artis yang ketika di panggung begitu cantik dan gemerlapan pun akan tampak polos dan jauh berbeza jika ia sedang tidur. Orang paling kejam di dunia pun jika ia sudah tidur tak akan tampak wajah bengisnya.

Perhatikanlah ayah anda saat beliau sedang tidur. Sedarilah, betapa badan yang dulu kuat dan gagah itu kini semakin tua dan lemah, betapa rambut-rambut putih mulai menghiasi kepalanya, betapa kerut merut mulai terpahat di wajahnya. Orang inilah yang tiap hari bekerja keras untuk kesejahteraan kita, anak-anaknya. Orang inilah, rela melakukan apa saja asal perut kita kenyang dan pendidikan kita lancar.

Sekarang, beralihlah. ... Lihatlah ibu anda.... Hmm...kulitnya mulai keriput dan tangan yang dulu halus membelai- belai tubuh bayi kita itu kini kasar kerana menempuhi kehidupan yang mencabar demi kita. Orang inilah yang tiap hari menguruskan keperluan kita. Orang inilah yang paling rajin mengingatkan dan membebeli kita semata- mata kerana rasa kasih dan sayang, dan sayangnya, itu sering kita salah ertikan. Cubalah menatap wajah orang-orang yang kita cintai..sayangi itu... Ayah, Ibu, Suami, Isteri, Kakak, Adik, Anak, Sahabat, Semuanya... Rasakanlah sensasi yang timbul sesudahnya. Rasakanlah energi cinta yang mengalir perlahan-lahan saat menatap wajah mereka yang terlelap itu. Rasakanlah getaran cinta yang mengalir deras ketika mengingat betapa banyaknya pengorbanan yang telah dilakukan orang-orang itu untuk kebahagiaan anda.

Pengorbanan yang kadang-kadang tertutupi oleh salah faham kecil yang entah kenapa selalu saja nampak besar. Secara ajaib Tuhan mengatur agar pengorbanan itu akan tampak lagi melalui wajah-wajah jujur mereka saat sedang tidur. Pengorbanan yang kadang-kadang melelahkan serta memenatkan mereka namun enggan mereka ungkapkan. Dan ekspresi wajah ketika tidur pun membantu untuk mengungkap segalanya. Tanpa kata, tanpa suara dia berkata... "betapa lelahnya..penatnya aku hari ini". Dan penyebab lelah dan penat itu? Untuk siapa dia berpenat lelah. Tak lain adalah KITA..... Suami yang bekerja keras mencari nafkah, isteri yang bekerja keras mengurus dan mendidik anak, juga rumah. Kakak, adik, anak, dan sahabat yang telah menemani hari-hari suka dan duka bersama kita. Resapilah kenangan-kenangan manis dan pahit yang pernah terjadi dengan menatap wajah-wajah mereka. Rasakanlah betapa kebahagiaan dan rasa terharu seketika menerpa jika mengingat itu semua.

Bayangkanlah apa yang akan terjadi jika esok mereka "orang-orang terkasih itu" tak lagi membuka matanya, untuk selamanya ... "

wluape pun yg berlaku,wlu buruk @ jahat mn pun,mrk tetap ibu & ayah kt,tetap keluarga & drh daging kt...jgn persiakan peluang yg ada,jgn biarkan mrk mengalirkan airmata disbbkan kt. tunjukkan lah rs cinta & sayang kt pd mrk sblm semuanya berakhir. hargailah mrk selagi mrk ada didepan kt....sblm Allah ambik blk hak-Nya itu.

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a super+SOT sunday....

still sakit ati with that person's blog!!!!!!!!
aduyai...rosak mood 1 ari neyh!!!!
org sot!
me myself don't know why i'm angry with that "sot" person...
Ya Allah please help me....
today got rexco meeting i also didn't go..
too angry...fuh!!!
i'm not blaming that person..
i'm blaming myself for being so stupid..
not in mood to talk with anyone also..
why i'm like this??
weeee.....
just another day filled with stupidness...

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merentas desa...

3rd october 2009....
got merentas desa today...
i thought after secondary school there will no merentas desa anymore...
somehow at university somemore...aiiisshhhh....
my friend, (poyok) won the 1st prize for woman category..congrats dear!
during merentas desa, me and my driends took a lot of pictures...haha..
such a camwhore!
today also i'm going out with my housemates for dinner..
the "abang" at restaurant macho la...hehehehe...
i'm sooooooo angry with someone today..
don't know why i should angry with that person...
Ya Allah..plz help me to get rid of this feeling...

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me.....

some experience here..at first..i admit that..i'm too shy to speak out..difference in the way we speak..i'm just a sabahan girl..fuh!..trying my best to mingle with people here..and to my surprise, i managed to get along with them..from kelantan, terengganu,kedah people and many more..my roomate is from kedah..nice girl and damn funny also..<>...i met many friends here..especially the teslians...fara,faezah n hijannah..my best buddies forever...

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piece of me...

juz want to share about my life after matrix at labuan..i'm here today at a place called UPSI..which stands for Universiti Peendidikan Sultan Idris which is located at Tanjong Malim, Perak..i'm taking tesl programme which i've applied in the first of my list..Alhamdulillah i've got want i want..weee...and today here i am..in a new place..new surrounding..new friends..

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after some time....

fuh!!...long time since i didn't write here...after busy with matrix life..going back to tawau..i'm completely forgot about this thing i called my blog...haha

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